in between

it's nice to be in between the sheets
and the daylight - and the moonlight
i'm not so sure about the time between
then and now, what is and what will be
or is that what was and what is

they say God never closes one door
without opening another...
some say 'but it's hell in the hallway'!
i don't really mind the hallway
except in times of uncertainty
ha - i lie to myself and say

the now is where it's best - on any given day
it's where I long to learn to stay!

friends

many friends i have i do
they've carried me through lifes darkness
and my own creative abuse
my choice is always to have women
whom i can turn to
lean on
grow with - lest i lose my mind
in the ever growing lack of connection
in this world

the universe waits

isn't it true that every thought you put out there
is in the process of awakening to truth
of happening in the exact way that you expect it to

isn't it true that even if I keep the thought to myself
someone somewhere is aware of it and acts accordingly
to see to its fruition

the universe sits in waiting for your every desire
night and day for all of your life
just waiting to fulfill your every whim
good, bad, or indifferent

and in my happiness and clarity, i know i've created it all
by giving it to the universe and the Spirit within

what i like

what i like is what i like
isn't there a song like that??
what i am, is what i am, is what i am is what...
hmmmm i smile to myself cause it's a nice song

someone told me today that she likes me
and she was afraid i'd chase her away
to some other source for step work
sponsorship it's called oh God why do we suffer
in the face of being human trying to exist together

so much abuse has us all fucked up and just trying
to get through another day without drowning
in discontent and unwanted disclosure

if i like you does that mean i have to go away
or sleep with you
or be something different
than i've always been in your presence
is that to help you feel less threatened?

keep your distance if you cannot be yourself
with me - it means i'm dangerous
to your self esteem and souls existence
why would i or you give anyone that kind of power?

the light of day

different from the dawn or the feeling
of entering a new opportunity to do it right
the light of day is like any given moment of clarity
gained out of experience, often painful or difficult

I guess

the rain falls upon this metal building and I'm drifted
into a desire for candles and fire and meditation time
but key away I will instead - it's healing you know
to express oneself as the many facets that we are

the dawn

i have awakened from a place of discontent
alone in my current vocation
peace along the journey is what i'm after
for the road is long and beautiful
my quest is not to fill a void
but to graciously choose each careful step
with a purpose in my sight
or a moon
on any given day

my tears are for the joy of freedom
from the chains of obligation and lack of self care

this girl turned woman is stronger than she ever was
and i am grateful to the likes of all my journeys lovers
yes we have a soul mate - or many

my journey toward the Self is forward bound
glory to the Teachers on my path

Sometimes I go about in pity for myself, and all the while
A great wind is bearing me across the sky.
- Ojibwa Saying

Pity is a waste of time and good heart resources.
My life is this because I choose it.
It changes when I look to the greater good of all.
If I am humanly capable.
It's cold outside today, and my short walk was completely invigorating.
It helped me feel alive...
and the sun is also shining inside and out...