aftermath

as i lie here breathing, my heart begins to settle
and the pounding deep within my belly spreads
to loins wet with passion and jumping still
i realize it's you and memories flood my heart and mind
like ocean over sand at high tide in the setting sun

i have longed for this day over years of life passing,
friends dropping by and babies born at 1am
lovers come and gone in the winter of discontent
late nights sleep left crying in my pillow
after pleasuring myself with only you

the glory of a lover lost, left behind, buried deep
then realized, remembered, and resurfaced
is Gods' work in motion
spilled out in the physical form of my life
tears of appreciation for the gifts
i never thought would reappear

my God you are a gentle sort and
in the arms of the woman my soul desires
i am reminded that nothing comes to anyone
without heartache and pure loves' sorrow,
forgiveness and a sense of hope!

i will cherish every moment spent with you