eye of the unknown

you take a place to call your own where you can feel
but you do not share that space with me, just yet
what is this feeling I have when you are distant
I am wondering how to be in the midst of unknown thoughts
feelings that look like something they most likely are not
I am in love with a woman who feels things

once upon a time I was frail and afraid of everything
that you might leave me alone and in the midst of your destruction
now I only know that your love is real and ever present
and I cherish the building of history between us
longevity and experiences of love and laughter evermore

party animal you called me last night - I smile
truly we are not the women we used to be and yet we are
just having shed the darkness and dispair that childhood colored
if only for the moment and in this one, light shines through
and leaves are nubs upon a tree branch and grass is green

spring has awakened me and loves memory of you
long buried deep within the caverns of my heart
those around are witnessing the kaleidescope of 'us'
my life is better than I dreamed it ever could be
and the sun is shining on this day in April
thirteen years later and many moons of heartache healing


4/10/08