Resentment festers

I cried today so hard my vision was blurry for hours
kicked a table across the living room and hurt my fist banging
How could you do this?


Anger doesn't come to me that easy; but it's got roots in years of pain
I am moved to shame by your poor decision and yet I believe you
when you say you won't make this mistake again,
even as I change my mind
about throwing everything you own out the window

and this is what it feels like to accept another's faults with patience
and move to forgiveness with a look inside to see what I can change
to ease the pain and fear and release the shame, and the resentment

- I love you, unabashedly (that's a word right?)
be gentle with me and don't attack the one place I really fear the most
when trying to keep it all above water and operational
besides the thought that you'll walk away
I think we're past that, although I threatened you with it

Today was a really fucked up day (pardon me for cussing)
but we got through it