I wrote this in November

I awaken to thoughts of stories I've read, and memories, and a sense of wonder at why all this takes place in any given life or group of lives. I'm reminded why I am exposed to the events and choices of those around me and those I love. I know why I am drawn to emotionally detached AND those with a depth equal to the one I deny in myself. I am in the moment now, and it is not a place I don't like, in fact I love this moment, this quiet, this having a recognition of all my blessings, dark and light. I am to create a ceremony before next Saturday, of gratitude to the Gods and Guides for this life I have gained, and these tools I have been given. I visualize the circle that surrounds me, envelopes me, and enlightens me. I am the person I choose to become, in every moment. My thoughts lead me to the darkness of me, or the light of me. I am equally both. The light is lighter and the darkness is often harder to conquer, though I've always enjoyed an uphill climb.